I came home yesterday, I was looking for you sleeping, but… but no… I will never forget your amazing smile. What a brother you were. How you progressed, how you became the best commander in the world. The best son in the world, the best grandson in the world. Always just giving and helping and expecting nothing in return. I think the only thing I can take from you is your strength to hold on, because I know that you are standing up there now saying ‘be strong. I’m fine, I’m good.’ But we are not good. It’s hard for us. Just help us from above. Hold us. I had one heart and now I have half a broken heart. I love you my brother.”

Since we are twins, it’s a pain that cannot be contained, and it doesn’t sink in. He’s my brother, my second soul. Last Thursday he talked to me, sent me pictures of him laughing and smiling. He was a person who only knew how to contribute to everyone…